If it was possible to marry books, I would get married to this one. No, actually I don't care what other people think. This book is my partner from now on.
The courier man delivered it today and it is perfect. I absolutely love it. I actually feel love. I think my heart is going to burst. I think I'm going to burst. Every page is filled with designs that take my breath away. I can't describe how I feel right now.
Oh, and guess what else happened today! The results for a design competition was announced, and I got 2nd place. Which means that I have won an iPad2. I am happy about that, but I am also extremely extremely extremely disappointed that I didn't get first place and the prize for it (which was a trip to Germany). I was actually gloomy for half of the day and I couldn't focus. I felt like throwing up and felt dizzy. But I got home and hugged my new book. I am still sort of shivering from disappointment and some other emotion. It feels like anger or sadness, but I'm not sure.
I am feeling very emotionally confused right now. In love, happy, somewhat satisfied, but disappointed and a little bit angry and sad. Mostly regret though. I should have tried harder if I really did want 1st prize.
